I am a spiritual two-year old!

Again, something huge has hit me.... And I mean aside from the projectiles that Jaiden deems appropriate to send my way at the most unexpected moments.

My daughter is two. If that statement does not ring through with enough screaching siren sounds, then I do not know of another statement that will hit you strongly enough.

As I sat comfortably (this is a rare occasion these days) on our sofa, I was watching Jaiden as she explored the living room. It was cute. She was learning about the things around her just has she went about her way. She would ask questions, I would answer them. She would seemingly apply what she had just learned from me and then go on to the next task. But then, out of no where, as if I hadn't taught her a thing, she deliberately disobeys one of my (our) rules.

Then WHACK! it hit me. That is EXACTLY how I must be in the eyes of our Lord. Oh my goodness. I am a spiritual two-year old. Just like Jaiden in her unrelenting disobedience that absolutely wears me out to no end, I must too, do that in the eyes of God. A little sin here, a little sin there. I go about my day, smiling, talking with the Lord, complimenting all that He has done for me (glorifying Him, obeying, making disciples, etc.), but then WHAM! I sin. I worry about things that are not happening in my timing. I wonder about the future (as if He is not going to handle it). Good GRIEF.

It has to be so frustrating to my God that after so many years, so many conversations, so many lessons, the best and biggest How-To-Do Book known to all mankind (the Bible) available to me at all times, that I STILL continuously fail and intentionally disobey God (and His word).

Unbelievable. Although I do not intend to whip a votive candle (which happens to be my favorite home decor ojbect)at our Lord's foreye any time soon, I certainly will be aware of the fact that any little sin I may have at the tip of my fingers or lips will be flying in the face of the God who once told me "No ma'am!"

I'm exhausted and I have to go back to tending to my Jaiden Claire. May our God rest knowing that I am planning to be on my best behavior.

~Jods